i get sorta jealous

when i see my family members talking to eachother on like facebook. like two sides of the family that dont talk. like my cousin that im really really close with talks to my other cousin that she rarely sees and sorta even dislikes. but on her status updates she always writes like encouraging words. and no me…nothing or if she does is to make fun of me, cause im predictable.

but i swear my id is always defeated by  my superego, which makes my ego healthy…cause i always find justification in everything. like i tell myself shes being nice for the sake of being nice. and she can fuck around with me cause we have a special relationship.

:D